one last dance

hey guys,

hope all you guys are having a good holiday back in SG ya. i miss SG and you ppl and i can't wait to go back in summer. haha anyways, been pretty low for christmas this year so im sending my apologies for not sending any cards and gifts home. but nevertheless, just wanna wish all you guys a blessed merry christmas and have a great year ahead.

till next time,
tessa

[ this might be the last post cos im gonna close this blog. do email/facebook me if anything! ]

facebook

facebook dampens my spirit. ugh.

I forgot to update this but im SG number is temporarily not in use k. feel free to send me a message on my facebook and i'd be able to reply using my cell cos of that facebook mobile function thing k. it's sorta free texting in some sense. thats all for now!

NY in the soup.

new york trip is in the soup cos the flight got cancelled! :(

yes. we got to the airport,
checked in, headed to the boarding gates,
sat and i had my starbucks.
and well at 1150am: flight to newyork
is cancelled because of the snow storm
and the airport in NY has been shut down
temporarily.

other flights fully booked or are overbooked
so no hell of a chance to make it to NY anymore.


i'm so disappointed!
life needs to be better. really.
how many more bad things can happen to me in 2008??

looks like i'll be spending the entire christmas
holiday in CA.

ugh. i gotta plan for spring break.

and well guys, i might have to wait for bro
to finish summer school in may-june.
so that means delayed to return home by 6 weeks!
it's either gonna be 6 weeks in CA,
or 6 weeks in HK
or 3 weeks each?

UGH.

time for a gooood break guys.

hey guys

so just a quick update here. exams are finallly OVER! ended on friday after 2 big papers. 2.5 + 3 hours! and by the time i finished em i was literally brain dead. wanted to take a good rest but well i couldnt cos residence policy is to move out 24 hours after one's last paper! so, had to tidy up the room here and there, washed sheets and laundry and all that and obviously what do what im bad at, packing.

emhmm. so. everything was pretty rushed and the next thing i knew was im on the bus to toronto. this week was pretty fufilling i guess. the first actual week i can take a break and not have any studying/assignment/test/exam burden. so yeap. met up with some fellow mates from CIC. eating, shopping, playing pool and singing karaoke and lotsa walking were basically activities that filled my weekend.. and well edmund has also left canada and back to SG for good so hoped you enjoyed your times here in canada k!

so. as of now, im back in missisauga. will be staying here for the entire hols with bro. Dad and Mum will be here to join is too. we'll see how things go. shall try to meet up with school mates too here and there. mmhmm. quite a bit of things to do now that i have some free time. hopefully this hols will be good ya?

happy holidays my friends!

christmas is coming (:

Signs

Please listen to this wonderful song as you read!

Two ravens in the old oak tree, one for you and one for me
Bluebells in the late December, I see signs now all the time
The last time we slept together, there was something that was not there
You never wanted to alarm me but I’m the one that’s drowning now

I could sleep forever these days because in my dreams I see you again
But this time fleshed out fuller face in your confirmation dress
It was so like you to visit me to let me know you were ok
It was so like you visit me, always worrying about someone else

At your funeral I was so upset, so upset,
in your life you were larger than this
statuesque

I see signs now all the time that your not dead your sleeping
I believe in anything that brings you back home to me

- woke up at 7am today for calculus exam
- i got raped by section B and yes i totally screwed it up.
- and i'm sad and disappointed and feeling shitty. still :(
- and i thought of.

- the day went on
- ran errands in mason then headed back to campus
- found out my button fell off my coat.
- raining, slush and puddles of water. crappy indeed
- had a friendly talk with the cab driver before i alighted,
- and "bon journee" was enough to lift a smile on his face.
- randomly happened to walk past the tailors in UCC
- looked at the seamstress and went,
- "Could you please help me to repair this?"
- a moment of hesitation,
- but she did a perfect job and now i've two new buttons on my coat,
- and she didnt charge me a single cent.
- indeed such a kind act was needed to brighten up my gloomy day.

- did some studying in ssc
- joined by fellow mateys who were studying
psych and econ
- had a daily dose of bagel and coffee.
- came back to res after a long day.

- still feeling shitty.
- not in the mood to study
- so i went online and did some good internet surfing.
- became a fan of Ralph Lauren on facebook. random.
- watched gossip girl's last episode of this season.
- the mix of emotions
- loved it.
- here's a quote i like:

Serena: Thank you so much for being such a rock these past few days.
It's meant so much having you around.

Dan: Yeah well, it's not a problem. It just, it feels natural.
Serena: It does, doesn't it?
- and here's the song which i fell in love upon listening.

shut my eyes.
and all i thought of,
was what i wanna say
to you,
this christmas.

you know how much
christmas means to me.
and it would mean alot.

mugging, twilight, snow and BAGELS!

hello mes amis,

just a random lil update here.. taking a break from studying. but well i have been facebooking ALOT. -.- everyone is just posting prom pics! zomg.and well it seems like the thing to do now that As is over.. is that everyone is checkin out clubs/ pubs and well drinking. made me wonder how things will be if im back in SG studying and not here.am i missing out on anything? haha.

ok anyways so yeah lessons have ended. and finals are ongoing now. just had a paper on saturday. big thanks to prof tim for giving me a hand and relieving the tension. one of the nicest profs i have met so far. been pretty lucky and met a couple of good profs just in the first semester at western (:

took a break from studying on saturday after that 3 hour long paper and headed to the theatres to watch twilight. haha. it was okay. didn't think it was fantastic though.. is it out in SG yet? and then crashed renee's place for the night! and had fun playing with snow. i totally suck at building snowmans. haha. geees. its 3am. amd im cramming for calculus. -.- tell me im so screwed for examss. lol. one down, three more to go.

hang in there ppl.
oh and btw, i've finally found my love for bagels.
everything bagel toasted with cream cheese. d-e-l-i-c-i-o-u-s.

loves (:
unrehearsed.
and yes i was sitting on the snow.

the man who can't be moved

The man who can't be moved- The Script

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not...broke I'm just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Policeman says son you can't stay here,
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

People talk about the guy
Who's waiting on a girl...
Oohoohwoo
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world...
Hmmmm

and maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved,
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news,
And you'll come running to the corner...
Cos you'll know it's just for you

I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
[Repeat in background]

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.

relationships. toronto. memories

hey guys

guess it's been a while since i last updated. firstly congrats to all those who can finally let go of the A level burden. uni has still been the same. but im more or less done with the major assignments tests and exams so finally manged to get a good weekend break this week. survived the two 1000- word essays for MIT last week. had to pull a couple of all nighters due to my inefficiency. but i figured i work better under a time constraint environment. haha. so yeap decided to take a break this week before i mug for finals..just 3 more weeks or school and then im done with first sem of uni. holidays are definitely much needed. so yup packed my bag and jetted off to downtown toronto for the weekend.

shopping and eating good food pretty much sums up my activities in addition to meeting friends and bro. bro came downtown on saturday and we hung ard downtown, shopping here and there. feels so good to see shops like zara mango fcuk H and M etc! gosh the shopping in london is really so pathetic.. but anyways. yes managed to buy stuff after two days of shopping at bloor, yorkdale and eaton mall. met up with friends living in toronto. ate korean grill, sushi and real chinese food from chinatown. fat!

anyways i guess i really love the city life. maybe cos i was born and bred in singapore. which is a small city. but downtown toronto is like. mutiples of orchard road! standing on the 27th floor of chestnut res and looking over downtown toronto. gee even though they are all buildings. but the night scene is pretty captivating. its just so full of life and vibrance. and with the subways and streetcars. a bustling city is and the retail therapy i had this weekend was good in some sense i guess.. to add colour to my oh so boring london life..as well as made a big hole in my pocket. but thanks to bro for paying for some of my shopping and thanks mum and bro for the extra moolah deposits!

stands alone

11.11.07.11.11.08

you know at times you wonder
if what you are doing is worth it,
and you wonder if it's only you,
making the effort to try and make
the best out of every situation.

i guess sometimes in life,
all it takes is for there to be someone
who appreciates what you are doing.

it's been a while since i talked to some ppl
i guess the busy factor plays a big part too.
and well maybe differences.
and at times, you fail to understand things,
you see how insensitive people can get unknowingly.

hms. talked to a friend who was in aussie that day
and. haha .wow. it did take me this long to realise.
and for him to get over. but nevertheless
maybe its time we ought to repair the damage. haha

two essays due this week. so screwed. and.
I have been writing 2007 and not 2008 since ytd.
and yes it's starting to irritate me.
i guess i really did lose a friend.





"but all i can say is. there are the times when you just sit back on your chair, on the bed and breathe and think. and you hope that there is jsut someone whom you can be yourself with and talk to.. or wish that you cld pick up the phone and dial one of your good friend's number hoping to have a good long chat.. but to realise that, oh that person is busy doing a school project now, or he or she is busy with sth else.. or rather.. oh time diff eh, he or she is sleeping."

i miss those times. and i really miss having someone to lean on. and i miss .
11.11.07.11.11.08

the words busy and miss

it's so crappy that schooling makes everyone so busy..
take a step back and look..
when school starts, projects, assignments, tests and exams pour in..
you get so busi-fied with school .. trying to keep up with everything..
you hardly have time to shop or hangout or chill with friends and family..
then you realise. gee hanging out with friends and all that is only
what i call a "holiday thing"..

well.. i guess there are those who make efforts,
to check in on their family and friends once in a while..
but there are those who totally "disappear" and you just don't hear
anything from them for a long while..
when was the last time you made an effort,
to check in on your friend? or shld i say.. "friend"?

anyways. on a sidenote, it's kinda weird not feeling the same way as how most of my friends are doing now. in the midst of going through the big As. wonder how immense the pressure is..
and back to me and my uni life. when you are busy, time DOES fly. haha. it's already week 10 of term 1 and well.. in about 4 more weeks, i'm done with first term in uni. fast isnt it??
YES IT IS! and yes. so many things have happened.good and bad but mainly the latter.. lol. the intensity is always there, sometimes not that intense, but sometimes things start to heat up and you just get so so busy..all you do is just schoolwork and nothing else...


but all i can say is. there are the times when you just sit back on your chair, on the bed and breathe and think. and you hope that there is jsut someone whom you can be yourself with and talk to.. or wish that you cld pick up the phone and dial one of your good friend's number hoping to have a good long chat.. but to realise that, oh that person is busy doing a school project now, or he or she is busy with sth else.. or rather.. oh time diff eh, he or she is sleeping.


i miss those times. and i really miss having someone to lean on. and i miss .

it's like the wind.

lay,
close,
memories,
smile.
noise,
open,
reality.

guess that's why sometimes,
you just don't wanna
close.

One last time

[ listen to the song! ]

Your Call by Secondhand Serenade

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone,
and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

life as it is

hello november

anyways ytd was october 31st and yeap halloween that is. and of course, marks two months being in western/perth hall! gee. did nothing for halloween.. skipped econ tutorial cos of this splitting headache and me being lazy..so i didnt even go to school. and well. literaly rotted my day and night in res. i should prolly be the saddest soul on halloween. haha.

i guess cos i don't have the habit of celebrating halloween so i stuck with it.. guess i cld have joined in the fun and the party next door. but o well. ended up having a talk with shelley.. about school, western..grades.. friends.. and life.

econ midterm next saturday. what a spoiler. and then i have two essays due. which i havent started. blahh. work is piling up. and i'm not studying nor doing the essay. i need some motivation or incentive or sth. argh.







life.
sighs.

hello snow

it's..... snowing!

already! gee. it's only the last week of october and yes it has started to snow here in london. say byebye fall, and hello winter i guess. trees are starting to get bare.. leaves falling all over..and it's getting so much colder these days. not looking forward to the days i have to trudge to school with heaps of snow all ard.. slush..and ice.

glad im quite done with midterms. left with one more econ paper. but essays are pouring in. gah. intense intense.

caught the cold bug unfortunately since it's been raining the past weeks... headache. blocked nose. headache. runny nose. headache.

to all those who havent gotten the cold bug, do pile on the layers and take extra care! cos winter IS round the corner!

pull out all your winter coats, scarves, snow boots, gloves, beanie etc!

and let's brace ourselves for colder days ahead!






ugh.